Today was the first day that we have not received a sympathy card in the mail. They have stuffed our mailbox over the past two weeks. We have received cards from loved ones, friends of friends, co-workers, neighbors, friends from high school, our parents’ friends and people we don’t even know. It is overwhelming to sit down and read them all, yet they bring us such a sense of peace.
One of the cards we received last week was from one of Oliver’s teachers at school. She wrote in it that they were talking in music class about how God has a plan for each of them. Oliver spoke up and said that God had a plan for his sister but she didn’t get to stay here. On Sunday, Oliver’s preschool had “Preschool Sunday” at church. One of the songs they sang had the words “God has a plan for you and me.” Oliver had been singing it at home prior to Sunday, along with “Jesus Loves Me.” It brought tears to my eyes to listen to him sing these songs. He is four years old and fully understands both of these songs and the message they provide us.
God does have a plan. We don’t know what it is. We don’t always like what it is. God did not want Kyleigh to die any more then we did. As much as we don’t like what happened, it was part of the plan. There is nothing we could have done to stop it. Some will disagree with me on this, but that is our (Rodger and I’s) theology. Some day, we will understand God’s plan. Whether that happens this side of heaven or not, we do not know. All we do know is that Kyleigh is perfect in heaven. She knows no pain. She never cried any tears. She is happy and whole. It sure wasn’t our plan, but it was God’s plan.
Oliver and I talked about this after we got home from church. He understands that God’s plan was for Kyleigh to go to heaven and be with Jesus where He loves all of the us. Oliver understands that some day, he will be with his sister in heaven. He knows that right now, God’s plan is for him to be here on Earth with us.
Jesus loves me, this I know
For the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong,
They are weak but He is strong.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
Kyleigh's Gift 
These verses are not meant to be trite sayings or bandaids on gaping wounds. These were the cry of my heart and the promises I clung to in our season of loss due to miscarriage and again during a troubled pregnancy. Thank you for sharing your heart! I am praying for you and yours.
Job 13:15 “Though He slay me, yet I will trust in Him.”
Hab. 3:17-19 “Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herds in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on high places.”
Ps 126:5-6 Those who sow in tears will reap in shouts of joy! He who goes out weeping bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy bringing sheaves with him.”
I think that this is so beautiful. And I truly believe that God does have a plan for all of us and it is an amazing, glorious plan. Having the faith and courage to believe in that even when we can’t see it and even when awful things happen is a true testament to loving Him. Seeing how you and Rodger have been constantly praising God through all of this is an inspiration to me and has deepened my own faith. I am so excited for the day when I get to meet precious Kyleigh up in Heaven and thank her for how she has affected my life.
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